Ineffable Ontological Detanglement .: Introspective Assistance & Mental Analysis Manual
You have perceived something emotionally or intellectually threatening, semi-consciously you find your perceptual filters and actively look through all of your possibilities, how you can make your perceptual filters combine forces in order to alter the very fabric of reality and turn this concept into a slightly different or completely different concept, alter the meaning of what you know to be real and what you know to be false.
Assign meaning all the way to final, all the way to stepping outside of reality looking at reality, piecing through the cracks, this concept has become a blank isolated item, it's no longer connected to any other known concepts, it's meaning has now been established by myself.
You've added something very serious to your ongoing life of persistent delusional disorder, this one will trigger a lot more than "I know... I'm deluding myself..." You'll trigger intense anxiety and confusion on the level of painful. This wall keeps it very safe, very safe from you having to look at what you've done.
It makes you feel very smug, very comfortable, very happy. Once you've done this happy comfortable smugness just flows over you, you know you're safe you know you've won.
Narcissistic control of narrative is when you do this consciously, completely deliberate. You've likely clicked the awareness of a life full of ego protective delusion and have become the mental discipline kung fu master of your own perceptual filters. If you're doing this, chances are it has become your life, chances are this happy comfortable smugness has become your baseline. HaHA, I can defeat all, pisses you off doesn't it?
Doing this consciously means that you are lost, you are lost in the world of your perceptual filters semi-consciously thinking that they are reality itself and you are the centre, the star, the writer of reality, the shamanistic bender of the very fabric. It's a very important position you will float into the heavens over yourself. You see that you do this but you don't see that you do this, you don't see that you're not supposed to do this that's not how it works. You don't see the difference between you or anybody else, you'll never see the difference between a person who does this and a person who does not. In fact, they are quite likely to over emphasize that there's no difference between you and I.