Ineffable Ontological Detanglement .: Introspective Assistance & Mental Analysis Manual
This is something I would rather put under behavioral dysregulation than disorder, but, I guess happy condescending extroverted society wants it to be a disorder, so, okay, I guess I can see it as a disorder I don't have to go making all my statements, but, it isn't the same kind of mind clicking as borderline or PTSD. It can become pathological and turn into agoraphobia and now is when you're playing with the line of what we could label disorder, but, it still isn't the same kind of mind clicking as borderline or PTSD you just have some really fucked up behaviour.
You're just timid and shy. You're just insecure. You lack the confidence in your self image and you don't think the others will like it, so... Introspection. Don't attempt to deal with it by forcing yourself to do the things that make you uncomfortable, deal with it by driving into the reason you are uncomfortable. When you're shaking in horror at the idea of having to speak to somebody and you can barely make your mouth form words, you are totally agoraphobic, that one is trauma on top of the shyness. You've basically clicked your mind into disorder, more or less, people like you are why I can say okay I guess disorder. But, it's more complicated than you have become the scramble of, say, borderline or PTSD, you're really just losing yourself in your own fucked up behavioral dysregulation due to the addition of trauma. A reasonably standard trauma response but a little bit playing with the limits. It can go all the way to psychotic, like borderline, at this point disorder, you're fucking psychotic. Before then? Disorder? Because of shyness and insecurity? No I don't think so. In social situations, you've never seen somebody with social avoidant to the point I'd label disorder, you've never seen anybody with social avoidant to the point of disorder in your life.