Ineffable Ontological Detanglement > Mental Disorders

I'm afraid interpersonal trauma has bzzaped itself into your faulty filtered mind and your faulty filtered mind has no idea how to handle it, so... Snap. It happens only to a mind improperly attempting to grasp at it's perception of it's relationships with people. If you're of the lower intelligence tier who allows others to construct their ego for them, you're not going to borderline.

Now you're an impulsive emotional wreck. "Please hurt me so I can watch you watching me watch you hurt me. But don't leave me you're everything to me I'll kill myself and then look what you did." However it is genuine, you need the person bad and not just so they can hurt you. You've snapped, you don't need to stay this way forever. You deal with it the same way you deal with all of the trauma based snaps, proper recompartmentalizing. Find the moment of snap and deal with the feelings properly, look at it for what it was. No, the key is not coping mechanisms and emotional support, the key is solve the snap. It's a delicate process, don't declare it finished until it's finished.

We all vaguely have the urge, every single one of us, it's within the mammal functions, to hurt the ones we love with you're hurting me. We all kinda sorta want to give into borderline feelings but very few of us ever get lost in the addiction, it is incredibly rare for a perceptual filter bypass mind to ever actually break the barrier and do it and one who does it knows exactly what they are doing. Unless of course you Aria Wellington tweaked your brain into oblivion. None of us are so lost in the feeling that we would ever give into it... To the point that we don't even know how to use love anymore and this whole thing is incredibly confusing, which is what borderline as a disorder actually is. Unless of course you Aria Wellington tweaked your brain into oblivion.

Chances are, though it isn't a guarantee, but chances are you just love your hurt others to hurt me tick option. You put the tick option brain glitch in the mammal brain glitch, that's not... You would have been better off with drugs.

You're an addict. You look for every little opportunity you can to tell someone they're hurting you. You fly forward with it, you plant it, you go "Ahhhhh yeeesss... Oh shit I did it again." The rest of us who know you know what you do, we see it in ourselves, we ignore it, we let you feed your tick. We know you know you're forcing it in wherever you can, another little darkness moment okay. A perceptual filter bypass mind, as an adolescent, may let their borderline urges almost reach the barrier, sometimes they may even go ahead and do it, however they are not in them they just want to hurt others with you're hurting me, it's just an urge that we generally never gave into.

The borderline urges go away once you actually get what you crave, your lover actually does genuinely hurt you severely beyond the boundaries of your perceived trust, then you're covered you don't need it anymore. If your lover was attempting to hurt you with their borderline urges and only wound up satisfying your borderline urges they get shamed out of your lover as well. That would have been the one, that would have been the one that finally breaks past my foundational fortifications, luckily I had a life time of constructional fortifications built around these foundational fortifications. But... Then it got resolved and I didn't really need it, she snapped, she went all over the place she doesn't want it. We fixed it, she'll always be a loon but she'll never be that again.

Don't try to initiate this process intentionally with your partner, that's a fucking borderline psychotic thing to do it isn't going to work. The "I did this to help" reveal then destroys all semblance of trust within the relationship. You are revealed as a broken psychotic and your partner will never be able to look at you again. Bad crazy people. Bad. I know seven or eight of you thought of it.

A lot of you just went "I'm not... Borderline I'm some other thing." Yeah, psychiatrists like to pretend doctor use words am sound smart, this one is the most liberally thrown around. It doesn't mean anything to them either but they're having a lot of fun what's the harm in pretend.

You're the only one who can save me. I'm broken. You're my only hope.

What you are about to experience is a lot of attempts at manipulation. It sounds a lot like they value you, they do not, they only value your validation, they only value what you can do for them... They only value themselves. The only thing they love is their empty lack of love. They only wish to destroy you in hopes of destroying themselves. Cry at the world of themselves, feel emotionally pretty, find a new one.

As a teenager I vaguely romanticized this type of person, but, luckily never had the opportunity to allow one to fully suck me into their black hole of borderline feelings and fuck me up as bad as them. I'm not their hope because I can fix them, I'm their hope because I can validate them. I never even really thought of the end point, I just thought of our film together directed by Wong Kar-Wai. Maybe at the end of it I could have floated away without understanding what I was seeing just like a Wong Kar-Wai film.

You think to yourself, semi-consciously... Please. Please hit my borderline urges and make me just like you. I'm not like you, I'm not like you at all. I have it together. But please... Please make me like you I want it so bad.

You know you do not wish for the destruction of yourself, so don't fuck with the forces of destruction. They're beautiful, romanticized people, they're not what you think they are.

What happens when you actually save them, hm? Well, you're bored. Nothing about this one is interesting anymore.